Sorry for you but I’m going to talk a bit about myself. I’m feeling really weird at the moment. I wonder if I’m the only guy who ever had this odd feelings you know. I really feel alone. I’m almost sure nobody can understand me; no human beings can put themselves in my position. And above all no girls can decipher me. It’s like if I use to mess everything up. I guess the reason is that I don’t know myself enough. Of course there are friends. But they aren’t every time there. Moreover sometimes I feel like they have changed. Something in their behavior has changed. They are not funny anymore. They are strangers. And I am afraid it won’t stop. i make some signs in order to make myself understood, because words will be too painful, too violent, to strange when they will be told. I’ll be taken for a foreigner, a disturbed guy, a killjoy. They will glare at me because I won’t be a part of the “gang” anymore. So I don’t tell anything, I am just like an observer. I internalize all of my despicable thoughts, everything that are close to my heart. Even if it consuming me. After all, I am the problem. That’s my fault if yesterday they were cool and not today. Everything is in my mind. I don’t know what I really want, what I really am. Accordingly I don’t know what is good for me and what good friends mean. I am a poor lonesome stupid boy, I know. I’m irrational. I know, my circle of friends tells to me that I wonder too much questions, I’m a fucking too thoughtful person. I couldn’t care less! I mean do their gibes are supposed to help me? I don’t think so. Well I stop to complain myself there.
I’m sure you just barely understand me, but I just needed to tell it. And I thank you if you succeeded to read everything.
Love you all. :)
>>>>>FS
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oh my, it's late at night, this comment may not make sense, i've kinda quit piczo but I had to comment on this! csdnj
I dislike hearing that you aren't happy :'( Now I don't feel happy, this sucks for the both of us :\|
Ah I'm fourteen and I feel like no one can understand me. I've felt like that ever sinse I was a kid, I was always the outcast in school still kinda am.
This guy who messaged me on facebook, won't leave me alone [he likes me -_-'] and we had this fight, and now he's made me feel so shit. I said 'sorry for being to modest.' I feel like such a freak for being to different..;/
Same thing, he says that I ask too many things, but that's just the way I am, I can't trust people easily. I wonder too much and I'm usually really opinionated... Anyway, then I felt like a bitchy girl, a freak :\|
I hardly know you but how are you the problem? I think if your friends can't accept you for you, or have changed their behaviours around you, you should say something to them, no matter how awkward or uncomfortable that may be. If you can't tell them how YOU feel then...they might not be the kind of people you should hang around. Friends are more important than girls. You're friends should always support you, whenever you need it. Your friends should not be annoyed if you wonder a lot/being yourself. In other words, you should be able to tell your friends anything.
And again, I've never met you, but I don't think it would be your fualt if they were not 'cool' the next day. Like I said before, if they don't like you for who you are all of a sudden, then it probably isn't worth it...You don't have to be funny or like what they like, or act how they do, to be cool or part of the 'gang'. You should just be yourself, you should see yourself and how you are when you look into your eyes :) And if they don't see a nice, kind person when they look into your eyes, then there's a problem and I'll be at your doorstep with a jack hammer. :D
And hey, too harsh on yourself, (for the 3rd time lol) I DON'T KNOW YOU! But you sound FAR from stupid. I don't know but maybe...
From what I read you're a sensative, curious boy, who likes to write. Kind of 'old fashioned' but in a good way? You remind me of one of those kids who hangs out reading in the library or like studying or something which is cute haha
What was I saying?
Woah I'm completely off topic, CONGRATULATIONS IF YOU HAVE READ THIS FAR!!
Anyway. I think it's better to be a thoughtful person. Analyse things, situations carefully - that's always a good thing right? People like that are usually smart..
Although...I wonder a lot and I think I'm a bit dumb lol ^^
It's not about being cool it's about feeling comfortable with people, don't ever say you aren't smart. Don't ever say you're not good enough and don't change the way you are, just because your friends say so.
Wondering a lot etc, makes up who you are. and hey if I knew you I wouldn't make you feel lonely. :)
apologies if i don't make sense. i'm off to bed...ew homework on the weekend.
OMG THATS A LONG COMMENT I AMAZE MYSELF!
IM SO SORRY!
Deal with it :) hah.
oh dear, i'm sorry you have to read all that its a fucking essay! omg!
Hmm, I never felt that way so I don't really know how to help :/ But I think everything will be just fine :}
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aha I get all of it, i think i progress ^^.
Yeah you've right but it could work in a beautiful story, but in the real life, you never know how friends can react. You never know anything. There is no schedulded "happy ends". Moreover, be thoughtful is a shit thing, i doubt about anything, when i do something i wonder why i do this, what will happen if i do it in a different way. you know to call everything into question drive me crazy. i wonder why i cant live simply whithout torture my mind. anyway. Thank you to help me susie ^^.
:)
"You're right"* soz
And thank you all the same Kaylor?
I know exactly how you feel.. it's the way of life, people changing, I don't think it's in your head or that you think too much.. I think people do change especially around your age, but you have to remember the only reason they don't understand is because you are changing as well as they are - even if you feel like you aren't changing and your at a stand still in your life.. Things will get better, just give it time and life will become so much clearer because right now it will be a daze..
Just live your life, because you can't relive a moment in this life..
Look after yourself :) <3
Oh and I am in love with your nevershoutnever tshirt by the way :) x
actually, i agree with the above two comments haha
that is all.
i agree with the above comments =)
things will get better though =D they always do!
loving the shirt =D<3
(:
I hope then. thank you all <3.
I think you'd enjoy the book: The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Steven Chbosky. It may be slightly extreme at times but it's about a teenage boy who thinks way too much and it's a really deep book, I find myself relating to it quite a bit.
The best thing you can do is stop using thoughts to not participate in life, it's a dangerous thing. Try not to worry and just do it, just smile and have fun, let time pass and Im sure you'll rediscover your friends.
i know allot of people have been saying this, but i get exactly how you feel! and it fucking sucks. i don't even know what to do to get myself to stop feeling like this, it's horrible.
also i would like to thank you! i started listening to nevershoutnever! a while ago thanks to one of your post and i'm not addicted. i love christofer-drew, his voice is amazing. and i have you to thank for introducing me to him <3
now addicted*
;)
you're welcome then! & I'm glad to hear it :D !
i totally get you! Hyped
You'd be surprised if you knew how much I understand you. I could have written that post myself! But things will get better, they always do! =] And hold on to your closest friends. They can make you feel better, for the moment, at least =]
I followed you, cause i think you seem interesting.
That's kind of you. happy to feel myself a bit less alone now :)
im guessing youre a Never Shout Never fan? Good for you! they are AWESOME!!!
Love ur blog,,, especially your banner
"Life but a walking shadow"
Its "Life's breath candle"by William Shakespear.
Love it! <3
NeverShoutNever <3
and things will get better, hold on to close friends, they'll get you through atleast :)
followed, you seem interesting x
Believe it or not I have felt that way for a very long time! It's all going to get better! Just hold on and life will bring a fun and long journey! :D
1st off all you know yourself better then anyone else.
2nd of all. DAMN i love the shirt and at first i thought you were christofer drew. I was like shit